I want this to be a happy web site, so I don’t want to go into all the things that led up to me not seeing you any more.

It is VERY important that you know that I fought and fought and fought to see you, until I couldn’t fight any more.  I made two very big mistakes:

1. I didn’t think your mother would want to stop me seeing you.
2. I didn’t think the Courts would let her succeed.

I was wrong on both counts, and am still amazed and horrified at the injustice.

What I do know is that you have never heard my story.  As you get older you’ll realise that there are always two stories in situations like this, and you have a right to hear both.  Unlike your mother I would never expect you to make a choice.  I love you too much.

The 21st November 2003 was a very big day.  On that day your mother and her legal team persuaded a judge that you did not want to see me, that seeing me would upset you, and that I should have no contact with you of any kind.  It is VERY important that you know that as a consequence I was not ALLOWED to make any contact with you of any kind, direct or indirect, and that your mother fought for this. You should never think, not for one minute, that I didn’t care. A little later I spoke to your Grandma and Grandpa, and Auntie Paola, and told them what had happened.  They were all terribly upset, as they love you and miss you too.  We needed to be strong for one another, and I reminded them of one of my favourite quotes:

“It is more important that heaven exists than that we should be able to get there”