Dearest Sean, Rosie and Maria

Do you know how long it is since I’ve seen you?

 

 

Do you know how often I’ve thought of you since then?

EVERY SINGLE DAY  

I’ve put this little web site together for a few reasons:

1. so that if you ever want to contact me you can
2. so that you can find out about me, some of the things I’ve done recently and some of the things
    I’m doing
3. most importantly of all, so that you know how much I love you and how much I miss you

It is the greatest tragedy of my life, and the saddest thing imaginable, that I have not been part of your lives for so long – as each of you grew up.  I have missed you all terribly – it has been literally unbearable for me.  I do not how you are, what you have done, your loves, the things you like and dislike, the things that move you. I have not been able to help you when you may have needed it, to guide you when it may have helped you.  To show you how much I love you.  To be a father to you.

So how much do I love you?  Well, there aren’t the words.  When you were little I used to read you all a story “Guess how much I love you?” by Sam McBratney, beautifully illustrated by Anita Jeram – and just like the father bear in the story I used to say “more than that”, “no, more than that”.  Before she could count Maria would try and guess: “more than a hundred?” – and that was a very good answer.  Yes it’s more than a hundred. It’s infinite.  It always has been and it always will be.

There’s a fantastic line from one of my favourite Pink Floyd songs (‘Poles Apart’ from “The Division Bell” – see the “My Life” page) which goes:

“I thought of you – and the years and all the sadness fell away from me”

When I think of you all of course I am sad – sadder than I can explain – that I am not part of your lives … yet happy that I was lucky enough to spend the first few years of each of your lives with you, happy that you’re out there, and privileged to be your father.

I love you all xxx

The page was last updated on 4th February 2007